So many people are quick to say it,
The dreaded words of child loss,
you are “so strong”—
Or “God can only give you
what you “can handle.”
I haven’t had this for awhile.
But today it occurred to me.
As an elderly woman asked about
My tattoo on my wrist.
“Bo William? Who is that?”
(I love hearing his name.
My God.
Do I love hearing his name!)
But the unknowingly deep question,
Naturally led to an answer.
And I could feel the lump
In my throat welt up,
As soon as she mustered out the words-
After I explained Bo’s story:
“God doesn’t give you more than you can handle”.
And as I’ve chewed on that statement for a few hours.
I have to tell you..
I’ve come here to tell you..
This could not be further from the truth!
God DOES give us MORE than we can handle-
all the time!
But this is to present us with
an OPPORTUNITY
to turn to Him.
He gives us more than
What we are capable of
handling so that we break
and ask God for help.
He wants us to have a
relationship with Him.
He longs for it.
God does give us more
than we can handle.
That’s the whole divine purpose.
Of this thing called life.
Because,
Here’s the thing,
None of us are getting out alive.
And whether we try now
Or fight later,
We all have the same fate.
It’s God that designs us to need Him.
He breaks us in military formation.
The truest military form there is.
Life.
Are we capable of healing
without Jesus?
Sure, maybe.
But wholeheartedly?
I’ve come closer and closer to this question.
Leaning more toward one direction for an answer.
So my advice is this,
Be broken.
Don’t pretend.
Don’t make believe you’re okay,
Because you’re not.
You’re broken.
Allow yourself to be just that.
Be that.
Broken.
And then,
When broken feels right,
let GOD
fix
your brokenness.
Because He gives you MORE than you can handle,
But guess what?
The beautiful news is that:
You are not alone!
-Amanda Hartwig
